Busy Of Nothing

May 9th 2008

Current mood : Busy of nothing
Current song : Summer SM Town

Today my Boss had a business trip for a day.
You know what it means? No job for me......
Hmpfh,......for few people having no job its kind of pleasure, but for me doing nothing is stressful.
What I am doing now just sitting in front of computer, put in order all the secretary files, in other words “I am busy with nothing.”
Sees all the employees around me, they are all busy with their job.
I am feeling unwell with that. Everyone is busy, and me?.......
I hate being unproductive. Because I am have already being unproductive.
Sometime when it’s beyond the limit, I will ask someone whether he/she need my help or not.
(But I think no one would never need help from a dummy person like me *___* )

MY PROBLEM

Why I always being afraid and shame with something called TALK!!!!
That’s my problem what I am feeling in office, had a problem with oratorical.
Whenever faced someone who had higher position than me, I feel so strained.
A lot of things that fill in my head is:
“Did I say something wrong?”,
”Will he understand my words?”
“Am I wrong?”
“Will he get mad with my words?”
Cowardly me.
HMPFHHHHH…..
Yosh! Must be more good than yesterday ^0^
A friend of mine have said to me

沙織さんは「日本語ムズカシイけどがんばってね！」と言った。